Pretty Simple

As I sit back and relax myself yesterday, my mind is like flying in the middle of nowhere can’t stop thinking about ways on how exactly I could earn money to start a business. I search every word that comes out in my head, until I have reach to these so called “income for life” site. As I’ve watched the presentation, pretty amazing. The details are captivating. But at the back of my head, this might be just another spam.

I realized that to succeed you should be a risk taker. That trial and error is always present when it comes to business.

I have spent $10 to sign up and see what can I really get from it. To test my earning power as well.

In other words, now I have the domain, free to watch the presentation. And if you feel like wanted to be part of the team, then sign up and let’s all build an income for life.

It pissed me off, when sometimes I’m drown with problems. and it’s a shit!especially when it comes to financial matters. Why does I’m being challenge this way?I know everything has a purpose. That this is how God set things for us. I’m still young and have a long way to go.

Until now, I still can’t figure out what to do and how to handle things in its right order. There are so many things that I wanted to achieve in life, but I guess those will be all just for a wish. I’m getting started to loose hope. Whenever I can’t find ways to move forward it really feels so shit!then ask..how do others get rich?how come they looks like they don’t have problems?…

It is not right to question God, though sometimes I can’t help but ask with anger.  Even blame my damn father wherever he is, who should have been responsible to stood up as the head of the family. We won’t suffer financially, if he only was committed to his obligations. I don’t care if he already has his own second damn family or whatever, as long as was responsible enough.

Some would ask “what will you do if you see your father”, I always replied ” I will tell him long time no see, you owe me that even a million is not enough for that 22 years.”

I am very ambitious which I know that before I can have those desires I must work hard for it, but why am I feel so weak and empty. I’m I not being true to myself?There is like an energy that pulls me down.

I wish i can get through all of these. Lately I’ve been thinking about buying a car, hahahaha , funny isn’t it?

I promise to myself that I can have that someday… if others can do, why can’t I.. I guess I’ll just need to re charge myself, think positive and aim high to reach that goal. aja!!

Everytime I arrived in the office, first things first is to put on my speaker and start to play my fave songs every morning. Well, just to energize myself before getting start to work.  It’s funny that I could almost memorize the lyrics of every songs I played and it seems even stuck in my mind anywhere I go.

VERY SPECIAL LOVE

I never believed in love
I was deceived by love, I never had much
luck with lovers before
I could’nt complete, I seem just part of the
street to be walked on by everyone but then

I found a very special love in you,
Its a feeling that’s so totally new
Over and over its burning inside
I found a very special love in you, and it almost breaks me in two
Squeezin’ me tighter and I never gonna let go

You’re not like the rest, I know your one of the best
you give more than you should and take nothing
in return (in return)
Stay always with me, and I’ll always will be
the one person that you can count on always to love

And I found a very special love in you,
Its a feeling that’s so totally new over and over
its longing inside, I found a very special love in you
and it almost breaks me in two squeezin me tighter,
And I never gonna let go..

EVERLASTING LOVE

I used to be so unhappy and so lonely
Love would come and never stay
But that was yesterday
I was scared to admit I cared for someone
‘Cause my heart would always break
But things have changed today
Darling, did you know that something happened to us.
Right before the future and right after past.
Did you smile when you found out what a wonderful feeling it was
We found an everlasting love
I’m glad we’ll go through life together
‘Cause when you are by my side
Tomorrow looks so bright
I’m sure we’ll stay in love forever
As for all our fears and doubts
They’re all behind us now
….This love is everlasting
Sharing my love with you
As we journey through life walking hand in hand
But a lifetime seems short
For a love that’ll last till the end of time…
….This love is everlasting
…Our hearts have found our love
(We found an everlasting love)
We found an everlasting love

I never thought that aside from friendster there are other sites that could also provides any individual an exposure through the web. This is what they call Lookup page. 

Hmmm… Let’s check out what’s in it.

I sign up for a new account to see clearly what could be the difference among other sites. I have learned that the site is a helpful way especially for those job seekers wherein employers perhaps may be able to visit the site and from there they can view all professional online profile such as personal informations, description of yourself, personal background and even work experience. You can do anything. A free website that you can post a blog or simply upload photos. It’s not a typical adding new friends setting but more on a career basis. Since from time to time you need to update your profile, who knows employers may find you and then get the best job. I must say they really have the amazing features.

Looking for fast cash payday loans?Have you tried applying loans online?How i wish I could find sites which are really proven to be real and not just a spam or scam. I have so much business ideas in mind, I’d like to start this and that but I am very low of cash to be use as a capital.

I applied into several loans but until now no good news or even a phone call. Maybe my papers is still under process or it has already decline..i don’t know…

What am I gonna do, where else can i find easy loan so that I can start my business venture. Anybody would like to help. or if you do have any advise. Please post a comment.

In years that I have been working, I thought that it’s time for me to make a change. To be more responsible and goodbye for being dependent. I wanted to have something as an achievement for everything that I work hard for all these time. God has answered my prayers that later on I came to know that my application for acquiring a house has been approved. This is only an indication of a new responsibilities. Since I live with my parents and has no plans yet of moving out, in order to pay with monthly ammortization, perhaps I should make it for RENT, that way i can earn as well.

But there has to be a need of improvements from ceiling, walls, floors etc. The problem is that I’m out of budget. My eagerness to fixed everything ended up getting a cash advance loan. I have applied to several companies that offers loans with minimum interest rate, I just hope there’s a chance to be approve.

what is your strength and weaknesses? This is a common question when you get in an interview. I hate myself stuck in a middle still thinking about what are my strength and weaknesses. I felt so stupid when I wasted a single minute and cannot think right away considering I should know myself better.I’ve read an article and that helps me learned how will I be able to determine those factors. I keep on thinking so that at the time that I will be interviewed I can always bear it in mind and answer straight.

Strength

Easy to be with – approachable . A friend that is someone to lean on and willing to listen in times of problems.

Organized – most of the time I want everything to be in place and in order.

Ambitious – this characteristics is pushing me to move forward, to explore and should never loose hope. To work hard in every dreams that I wanted to fulfill. Be independent.

Weakness

Here the only thing that I believed is my weakness is a character of being “shy”.  From my childhood up to this time. I am still known to be shy, demure, very feminine. When I think of it. I ask myself why I’m not like the rest? They have the confidence. The strong will.

This weakness is like pulling me down towards my success. As they say, if you don’t have the guts then you will remain where you are. I don’t want that to happen. I have a lot of dreams and that’s why I’m giving myself a chance to mingle with friends. Spend some time on weekends.

I wander what life awaits me two years from now. I wish I could see the future. Indeed, I’m started to feel what life is all about. I started to feel how hard to struggle especially when no one is around to help you in times of need. No one but yourself.

As I have reach these age, it may look as if I have reach so far in my career. But those years haven’t reach even one fourth of my dreams. I don’t like to put myself down, in fairness to those years, I have at least achieved something that has become helpful in some ways.

Yes I have a stable job! But there is something more that I need to work hard for to fulfill my dreams. And that is what I have to discover.

I do not wish so much wealth in life because I wanted to live simple. Dreaming like someday I would like to have my own car, own house and get married with two kids. If one day God will pour out so many blessing with me, then I would like to share it to others.

At these point of my life, it’s like I’m walking in a zigzag road. Too many problems which I don’t know how to fix or what to do next. I guess, this is just the beginning. A test if how far can I carry on into it.

I miss blogging after all. I stop for a couple of months as I am very much anxious about something else. My mind is as if very empty that I can’t think of anything. I tried to revert my moods, think of something to write about but my brains doesn’t cooperate.

Until now, I have less to say.  

Working everyday is really very stressful. Ever since I started to go to school until I finished my degree I have never been into a big vacation. You know, something like I would really enjoy about. Take pictures anywhere. Then go to a place that I would be able to relax, breath fresh air and get in touch with the new environment. But definitely that’s going to be outside the country if it happens.

I’m thinking what could be other places to visit which definitely can make my vacation worth it. Disneyland in hongkong seems to be very common already. I’ve seen a lot of pictures from my friends when they have went there during summer. Sounds fun but I’d like to experience something better. Wish I could go to US and visit some of the states. I’ve heard san diego restaurants is amazing. Lots of foods to choose from. I should better keep something like san diego dining guide as early as now, you know just to be ready for some eating adventure I guess. Hehehehe. But I wander if they will be giving away free san diego restaurant coupons, that will be fun if there’s any. Oh! A big break would really means a lot. I hope I can get it soon.