I wish

Posted by pinky

August 1, 2008

It pissed me off, when sometimes I’m drown with problems. and it’s a shit!especially when it comes to financial matters. Why does I’m being challenge this way?I know everything has a purpose. That this is how God set things for us. I’m still young and have a long way to go.

Until now, I still can’t figure out what to do and how to handle things in its right order. There are so many things that I wanted to achieve in life, but I guess those will be all just for a wish. I’m getting started to loose hope. Whenever I can’t find ways to move forward it really feels so shit!then ask..how do others get rich?how come they looks like they don’t have problems?…

It is not right to question God, though sometimes I can’t help but ask with anger. Even blame my damn father wherever he is, who should have been responsible to stood up as the head of the family. We won’t suffer financially, if he only was committed to his obligations. I don’t care if he already has his own second damn family or whatever, as long as was responsible enough.

Some would ask “what will you do if you see your father”, I always replied ” I will tell him long time no see, you owe me that even a million is not enough for that 22 years.”

I am very ambitious which I know that before I can have those desires I must work hard for it, but why am I feel so weak and empty. I’m I not being true to myself?There is like an energy that pulls me down.

I wish i can get through all of these. Lately I’ve been thinking about buying a car, hahahaha , funny isn’t it?

I promise to myself that I can have that someday… if others can do, why can’t I.. I guess I’ll just need to re charge myself, think positive and aim high to reach that goal. aja!!

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